Theme Song #23 - The Best Night...Hopefully

So tonight is the season premiere of LOST.

I am so excited I could pee. PEE!!

I hope it doesn't disappoint.

Not much else to report.

Rehearsals feel strained.

Work is getting done. Tech seems to finally be coming together.

I will be very happy when this show is over.

Haunted Houses are starting up soon. I gained a huge fascination with them last Halloween. I can't wait to go to some, though I am not sure I will have anyone to go with. Went with "the friend" last year.

Oh Well.

"I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it..."

That is my theme song for right now

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Theme Song #22 - Sucked In

So there was an email exchange.

I was in a good place, and I emailed just to say that.

My "friend" emailed back and seemed to say all the right things.

He is very good at that.

The problem is I don't think he really meant them.

Nonetheless, I began to be sucked back into it all.

I made to separate gestures in the two days since the email and both were met with lack of interest.

Why do I do this to myself?

How much can one person take?

I just feel like a fool again.

So, now I am back to being done.

"just give up, and admit you're an asshole. You would be, in some good company..."

That is my theme song for right now.

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Theme Song #21 - Last Straw

So, as I said earlier, I saw the friend on Friday.

There were drunk text messages, and a brief face to face encounter.

He said we should "fuck all this shit and talk"

I said I didn't think that was the night for it, and asked him to please just take the step as soon as possible.

He said he would.

72 hours later.

Not a single word.

I am done.

I may have said that before, but I really feel it this time.

I give up.

What more can I do?

Please, if you know, tell me.

=)

"the day'll come soon, I'll pack up the nothin' I own, and I live in my house, and I'll make it okay, by myself. On my own."

That's my theme song for right now

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Theme Song #20 - Drag Show

Saw a drag show tonight.

Benefit for St. Dunstans.

Went very well.

A lot of fun.

WAY too much to drink.

Was drunk.

Saw the friend.

Talked briefly.

Don't think it really meant anything.

We'll see.

"Oh baby won't you play me, le jazz hot maybe, and don't ever let it end."

That's my theme song for right now.

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Theme Song #19 - Instrumental

Been a few days.

Not much new to report.

Fighting a raging sinus headache all day.

Labor Day Weekend come and gone.

Not very exciting.

The new TeeFee season begins soon. So many new shows to watch, and not like. =) Oh who am I kidding, I am sure there will be 3 or 4 new shows to add to the 100 I already watch.

Rehearsing tonight. Off book for the first time. Should be interesting.

Guess that's all for now.

"dee dee daa daa da da da. la la la la la"

That is my theme song for right now

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Theme Song #18 - Son of Great Big Stuff...

So The Wilde Awards were fun. Long, but it was fun to be there. It amazes me how many people in the professional theatrical community I know.

We received the "Community Pride" award. At first I thought it was just going to Stagecrafters, but the award itself, a very nice plaque, specifically says Stagecrafters - Angels in America, Part One: Millennium Approaches. So that is very cool. I want to keep it, though I am pretty sure I will need to give to Stagecrafters, since MY name isn't on it.

I want to share this excitement with my friend. It sucks.

"I know no one's trying to hurt me. But I have to confess, knowing it doesn't make it hurt any less"

That is my theme song for right now

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