Theme Song #32-The End of the Season

So it is 2006.

Christmas decorations came down today. It is always so depressing to me when all the splendor comes down.

Another 321 shopping days until Christmas.

=)

Paul is going back to MN again. Not sure for how long this time. He needs to find a job. It's much easier being a low rent kind of worker. I can find a job anywhere, but it's a lot tougher to be an executive.

We are here for at least 3 or 4 more months though which is good. Means I can audition for Ragtime, and we will be moving in warm weather. Thank God.

Saw a great new show last night. The Book of Danial. CHECK IT OUT!!!

I guess that is it for now. I will try not to wait a month to write again.

"working nine to five what a way to make a living, barely gettin by, it's all taking and no givin..."

That's my theme song for right now (or at least the song that is stuck in my head)

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Theme Song #31 - Happy Birthday to Me!!

"i'm a modern man, a man for the millennium. Digital and smoke free. a diversified multi-cultural, post-modern desensitizing that is anatomically and ecologically incorrect. i've been up linked and downloaded,i've been inputted and outsourced, I know the upside of downsizing, I know the downside of upgrading. i'm a high-tech low-life. a cutting edge, state-of-the-art bi-coastal multi-tasker and I can give you a gigabyte in a nanosecond!

i'm new wave, but i'm old school and my inner child is outward bound. i'm a hot-wired, heat seeking, warm-hearted cool customer, voice activated and bio-degradable. I interface with my database, my database is in cyberspace, so i'm interactive, i'm hyperactive and from time to time i'm radioactive.

behind the eight ball, ahead of the curve, ridin the wave, dodgin the bullet ,pushin the envelope. i'm on-point, on-task, on-message and off drugs. I got no need for coke and speed. I got no urge to binge and purge. i'm in-the-moment, on-the-edge, over-the-top but under-the-radar. a high-concept, low-profile, medium-range ballistic missionary. a street-wise smart bomb. a top-gun bottom feeder. I wear power ties, I tell power lies, I take power naps and run victory laps. i'm a totally ongoing big-foot, slam-dunk, rainmaker with a pro-active outreach. a raging workaholic. a working rageaholic. out of rehab and in denial!

i've got a personal trainer, a personal shopper, a personal assistant and a personal agenda. you can't shut me up. you can't dumb me down because i'm tireless and i'm wireless, i'm an alpha male on beta-blockers.

i'm a non-believer and an over-achiever, laid-back but fashion-forward. up-front, down-home, low-rent, high-maintenance. super-sized, long-lasting, high-definition, fast-acting, oven-ready and built-to-last! i'm a hands-on, foot-loose, knee-jerk head case prematurely post-traumatic and I have a love-child that sends me hate mail.

but, i'm feeling, i'm caring, i'm healing, i'm sharing. a supportive, bonding, nurturing primary caregiver. my output is down, but my income is up. I take a short position on the long bond and my revenue stream has its own cash-flow. I read junk mail, i eat junk food, i buy junk bonds, i watch trash sports! i'm gender specific, capital intensive, user friendly and lactose intolerant.

i like rough sex. i like tough love. i use the "F" word in my emails and the software on my hard drive is hardcore, no soft porn.

I bought a microwave at a mini-mall. I bought a mini-van at a mega-store. I eat fast food in the slow lane. i'm toll free, bite sized, ready to wear and I come in all sizes. A fully equipped, factory authorized, hospital tested, clinically proven, scientifically formulated medical miracle. i've been pre-washed, pre-cooked, pre-heated, pre-screened, pre-approved, pre-packaged, post-dated, freeze-dried, double-wrapped, vacuum-packed and, I have an unlimited broadband capacity.

i'm a rude dude, but i'm the real deal. lean and mean! cocked, locked and ready-to-rock. rough, tough and hard to bluff. i take it slow, i go with the flow, i ride with the tide. i've got glide in my stride. drivin and movin', sailin' and spinin', jivin' and groovin', wailin' and winnin'. i don't snooze, so I don't lose. i keep the pedal to the metal and the rubber on the road. i party hearty and lunch time is crunch time. I'm hangin' in, there ain't no doubt and I'm hangin' tough, over and out!"

---George Carlin

So it's my birthday. It's an odd one. 35, which doesn't bother me in the least. Not the number. Not the getting older. It's kind of where I am at the moment. Not the grand design. Not the big picture. The small one. The current one. I have 2 friends. 2 people that were once closer to me than anyone in the world. And on my 35th birthday, I don't have them to celebrate with. One is my doing. One I had no choice in the matter. The one that is my doing, I am going to try and make some peace with this week. My friend Tracy. She is moving to Los Angeles. And I won't be able to live with myself if she moves and we haven't at least started to mend fences. It was a fight. It was a stupid fight. We are both stupid. But I am, well, stupid-er. So I am going to try to make it right.

The other, you know about. The friend I have written about here. I don't think that one will ever get better. But I can go into the next 35 years knowing that I tried everything in my power to make things right, and he just wasn't interested.

Christmas is coming. Shopping beginning. I LOVE Christmas shopping. Wrapping. Decorating. The whole SHEBANG!! LOOOOVEEE IT!! I think today I will do my Christmas cards.

I am not updating as frequently as I would like. But when a thought hits me I do, and I guess that is all anyone can ask for. Especially since I don't believe anyone has ever actually read any of this. =)

"...you look like a monkey. You smell like one too.

That is my theme song for right now.

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Theme Song #30 - No Day But...

TOMORROW!!!

The movie version of RENT opens tomorrow. I am so freakin excited. I hope it doesn't suck.

=)

There is a sadness that surrounds it for me to, as the stage version of RENT held a special place in my friendship with the "friend" I no longer have.

Oh well.

"No Day But Today..."

That is my theme song for right now.

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Theme Song #29 - Nip/Tuck

It seems lately all I am writing about is television and movies.

Well I do watch a lot.

But this, THIS is something special.

Go. Right now. Right this very second. And purchase the first season of Nip/Tuck on DVD. That is if you haven't already seen it.

Watch it from the beginning. But make sure you give yourself some time to watch episode #10.

It contained one of the single most powerful 5 minutes or so of television, or movies or anything I have ever seen.

I cried. It felt so good. I am still haunted by it.

I am so surprised I hadn't heard anyone talk about this episode ever. I am shocked it wasn't nominated for Emmy Awards or something. Maybe it was, and I just didn't know. I only started watching the show recently.

It is true brilliance.

Ryan Murphy who created it, also created another great show a few years back.

Popular. On the outside it seemed like another teen high school crap show. It was so much more. But that is another post.

Amazon.com has the first season for 19.95 right now. You won't be sorry.

Other than my N/T obession, not much is going on in my life.

I finally have more information as to why my "friend" shut me out. Not from him, of course, but at least now I have a good idea as to what is going on, and I feel better about it. Not because his reasons were good, but because they are so bad, and wrong that I don't feel so bad about losing him as a friend.

Paul is still in MN. Still lonely. Oh well.

"And I think it's gonna be a long long time. Till touch down brings me round again to find. I'm not the man they think I am at home. Oh no no no I'm a rocket man. Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone"

That is my theme song for right now

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Theme Song #28 - Lonely

So Paul is going to MN again for 3 weeks.

Although our relationship is far from perfect, it still REALLY sucks to be separated for that long.

I hate being home alone. And now with all that has happened with my "friends" it is even more lonely. I really don't have anyone to talk to, or anything to do. It just kind of sucks.

Poor Poor Me.

=P

I love Nip/Tuck and Grey's Anatomy. I am so excited for Lost to start again tomorrow.

I guess that is all. I am SO not an interesting person.

"All by myself, don't wanna be all by myself anymore..."

That's my theme song for right now.

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Theme Song #27 - Love, Actually

I just felt the need to write a quick post about a movie.

Love, Actually. Came out in 2003. Wasn't a huge hit. I didn't even see it at the theatre.

It is one of those movies that I caught on cable, and then proceeded to see 8 million times over the next year or so.

Each and every single solitary time I see this movie, I cry at least 5 times during it.

It is one of the most touching, romantic movies I have ever seen.

So, if you haven't seen it. Rent it. Buy it. Steal it. Whatever. But WATCH IT!!

"All I want for Christmas, is you...."

That is my theme song for right now

Cheers

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Theme Song #26 - It's OVER!!

Well the show is over.

THANK GOD!!!

Although I am extremely proud of the show, and the work, this show almost killed me. Literally.

It ends very bittersweet.

During the course of the show, the plans for moving were firmed up and I lost my best friend.

It will forever be in my memory as a very sad time of my life.

I wouldn't trade it for the world. The show and the experiences had to happen to shape my future. So although I am still sad about the happenings, I know it is all for the best.

But I am glad it is over.

"Obladee, Oblada, Life Goes On BRAH"

That's my theme song for right now

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